Series!

Ok, I’m here.

I had an idea. I want to do a series on Villains. Comic books, movies, television, villains from all over. I have some favorites.

I want to tell you why some of my favorite villains are so compelling. I want to introduce them to you if you haven’t ever had a chance to experience them.

I’m going to do a post on each of my favorites. I might find more favorites later, but these will be a good place to start. I need to do a little research and planning first. 

So no villain tonight, but I assure you, There will be villains in the days to come!

Nothing to do

English: GI CARD GAME, Watercolor, James Pollo...

English: GI CARD GAME, Watercolor, James Pollock, CAT IV, 1967, Courtesy of the National Museum of the U.S. Army (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Sometimes, you’ve got stuff to do, but still nothing to do.

Weird right? I know you understand what I’m talking about though. You may have things that need done. Projects, or chores or something of that nature.

Maybe they don’t actually need done right now. You could do it and get it out of the way, but it’s probably not going to happen. So you’re busy looking for something else to do. You just can’t find anything.

No matter what leisure time activity you think of, nothing sound like something you want to do. So while avoiding the stuff you could do, there’s nothing else to do. It’s really annoying.

I mean really annoying. Sometimes you spend days and days thinking ‘I’d like to do ________ if I just had the time. I never have any time.’ When it just so happens you might have a little bit of free time, nothing really appeals. Then you find yourself sitting and wasting time, hoping something will eventually attract your attention. then you end up doing nothing and you wasted your hard earned free time.

Well that’s just dumb. It’s frustrating to know that you could be making better use of your time, even if it’s just something you want to do and not need to do. Feeling like you’re not making good use of your time sometimes feels like a failure. Like it’s one more thing you can’t do right. “I can’t even relax properly.”

I suppose that comes with the territory of responsibility.

Did not forget

I did NOT forget to post today.

I know it’s late, and this will be short because of it. I did NOT forget. Since I have not been able to write when I want, I have been writing around 10 pm. Usually, I write, then finish what I need to for the evening and head to bed. Lots of times, I watch TV before bed.

Tonight I had the 2 hour season 6 finale to Sons of Anarchy that started right at 10. I did not have much extra time to write. I won’t post any spoilers here. I will make some

Sons of Anarchy Motorcycle Club

Sons of Anarchy Motorcycle Club (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

generalized references and share information.

If you haven’t seen this show, and you can tolerate violence, drama and plot twists, I recommend starting at the beginning. It’s a wonderful show. The up coming 7th season will be the final season. Over the course of the first 6, it will make you laugh, cry, and scare you. It will horrify and offend you. you will root for terrible people, and watch good people do terrible things. It’s a great show.

As for the this season’s finale specifically, I am not quite sure how to react. I didn’t expect most of the things that happened to turn out the way they did. I can say that feeling has been true over several recent episodes. I haven’t known what to expect almost this whole season. Not only am I shocked by the outcome of the finale, I literally have no reasonable guesses about what will happen in the final season.

Anything could happen.

I’m off to bed to try and sleep after that episode.

So Old

Turkeys in Folsom

I’m definitely getting old.

I get sleepy super early. The problem with this is, If I go to bed too early, I wake up way earlier than I need to be up for work. This in turn makes me sleepy earlier. You can see my dilemma here.

It also make nights like tonight very frustrating. I still have things that I want to do tonight, but I am very sleepy. I have to fight being tired, just to do a few things, so I also will not be too tired tomorrow.

this happens quite a bit, and definitely on Fridays in particular. A long week really contributes to my being wiped out. That’s why my Friday posts are usually short and occasionally pointless.

So I’m off to try to figure my next hour or so out. Likely I’ll continue fixing my tablet that I somehow screwed up(which makes me feel like a computer hacker, so not all bad.) Maybe watch a little TV. I know it’s only Wednesday, so sorry for the Friday quality post.

Happy Turkey Day tomorrow! Gobble Gobble Gobble!

Now you see me…

Now you don’t.

I have an idea brewing about my desire to spend large amounts of time watching television shows and reading books. It’s a little bit about how I might prefer characters to real people.

However, tonight I am tired. My brain is not going full speed. I worked late and I have a long weekend. So I will need to ponder my post later.

For now, I’m just going to go veg and watch more ‘Chuck’.

English: Logo from the NBC television program ...

English: Logo from the NBC television program Chuck (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Signs, Signs

Signs are everywhere today.

Funny signs

Funny signs (Photo credit: @Doug88888)

I am generally an ‘Everything happens for a reason.’ kind of guy. I’m not a complete fatalist, I believe we have control over our lives. I also believe that there are things that we can’t explain, and sometimes things are too big for coincidence. Sometimes it seems like no matter which branching path we take, we’re going to end up the same place.

Today, I kept hearing things that pulled me into the present. We all go through parts of our lives on auto-pilot. I heard things that pulled me out of that auto-pilot all day today. Things people said, little words that held extra meaning, song lyrics that seemed especially prescient. Even the TV shows The Wife and I watched had greater wisdom hidden throughout.

I’m noticing these signs, but they were all a little different. I’m not sure what they mean just yet. It’s not like they were all about the same thing. Signs and symbols are never quite that obvious, are they?

I don’t know if ‘The Universe’ is trying to tell me something, but I think that it might be. I think I should be on extra close lookout for more signs in the near future. Maybe I can find my way down the best branching path.

Might not change where I end up, but the trip might be very different.

Freakin’ Seriously?

What did I tell you?

I had to work late again tonight. I’m pretty tired as it has been a long week. I went to bed about 10 minute early last night. No ill effects. No real bonuses to sleep either.

I was working for about 12 hours. I came home and sat down to eat some dinner and watch a little TV. I decided to turn on the end of the baseball game. Extra innings.  So I change the channel and come back later. Still going.

At this point it’s about 10 or 10:15. I can barely stay awake. Tonight, I’ve got some things to check on, so I was planning to stay up until my usual time. Yet, I’m dozing on the couch.

This is ridiculous. I’m just going to sleep for like 12 hours both nights this weekend. I’ll show you Circadian Rhythm and Biological Clock.

English: inside one bedroom

English: inside one bedroom (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

 

Pop Culture Craving

I’m seriously craving a few things.

Crave

Crave (Photo credit: thebittenword.com)

Most of the time, the term ‘craving’ deals with food. Not always, but that is where you will hear it used most frequently. I get the occasional food craving, but the majority of my cravings have to do with pop culture or activities. This is weird, I know, but stay with me.

Right now I’ve got several cravings vying for my attention. I want to do some more 3-d modeling(the computer generated image kind),  I want to try playing guitar again, I’ve got 3 or 4 shows on Netflix I want to finish, I’ve also got 2 series of books I want to re-read, and some old Stephen King I want to re-read or read for the first time. I want to watch horror movies that I know I’ll regret watching.

I’m pretending to be an adult. I have a job that is officially 41 hours a week, that I occasionally have to fill in more hours for. I own a home with The Lovely Wife, and all the responsibilities contained therewith. I’m not busier than anyone else, but I’m not really swimming in free time. I don’t have enough time to satisfy all these cravings. I certainly don’t have the time if I continue to do all my everyday things in lieu of picking one of those things up.

I know that I’m over thinking it, I always do that. I’m worried about getting part way through something and then either losing focus or getting too busy. I’m trying to finish other shows or books or video games before I start something new. IT all boils down to the fact that I want to absorb too much information and I don’t have enough time to do it!

I think I need to start planning a vacation. I know you’re thinking it. I’ll go ahead and say it, “But you just went on a vacation!” I did. I’m beginning to think I need to plan several small vacations every year just for getting some of my crazy cravings out of my system. I’m serious. I think maybe I should take a week off every 3 or 4 months, and just binge on information. Spend a week living in the dark and just doing whatever I want 24 hours a day with no responsibilities or schedule. I strongly suspect this is implausible.

I think that may be my natural state of being. I am a creature of whim and impulse. I have strong desires to do things and I’m not always sure where they come from or there intended result. I naturally thrive in a system of ordered chaos. I tend to operate naturally in a place where I am isolated but able to reach out. Where no one expects anything of me and I am able to act completely without conscience. It’s a strange feeling knowing that one may be best suited to living in a cave by oneself.

As we all know, that’s not how life works. We have responsibilities and jobs. In the future, I’ll have Munchkins. Part of what makes us human, living in a society with other humans is the ability to rise above our base urges. Some people don’t need to do as much rising. Some people are naturally suited to burying themselves in their work. If they start early they may have no one to satisfy but themselves. Some people desire only to care after their children and are afforded that opportunity.

The rest of us are needed to rise above those urges. It’s what makes us a society. I do think the vacation thing is a good idea. Everyone needs some time to be who they naturally are. Within reason of course.

I’m an Adult! I’ll Act Like a Child if I Want to!

Fonzie

Fonzie (Photo credit: anneh632)

I’m feeling especially rebellious today. Unfortunately, it’s not rebellious in a cool, Fonzie-like way. It’s rebellious in that you-can’t-make-me-take-a-bath-if-you-can’t-catch-me way. I fear this is something I will be passing down to my children in the future.

It’s going to sound stupid, petulant and childish but would you expect much else from me? I just don’t want to mow my grass tonight. I hate mowing the lawn. Especially when for reasons somewhat outside my control, it has gotten too long and it’s going to be a pain in the ass to slog through it tonight. I could bag it, but this early in the year it’s growing so fast that I feel like it’s better for the grass to feed on it’s recently shredded brethren. I think I’m growing cannibal grass you guys. Is it wrong that I find the idea of training my grass to feed on nothing but other grass to be a motivator? Probably.

I’m just being stubborn. It’s not that big of a deal. It only takes an hour and it isn’t going to even be hot tonight. Such it the tortured life a mostly-responsible adult.

Back to this concept of my innately ruining my future children. I’m really kind of pondering this now. I mean, I know I am not a model human being. I’m ok. I don’t frequently find myself in trouble with the local 5-0, or have any lawyers on speed dial. I do wonder what parenting will be like.

If there’s one thing I have faith in myself to do properly, it’s be a parent. I always have. I am not a constant worrier that I will somehow ruin my future children’s lives with one small error or anything like that. Sometimes, I do wonder if I will pass on to them the worst parts of my personality.

You know how people who know you really well can see all those tiny little traits in kids that just make them say “Totally your kid. No way it could belong to anyone else”? I just don’t want My Spawn to be identified by things that I view as negatives about my personality.

I tend to stay indoors. I have occasionally attempted to locate a cave that has television and internet in it. I like the dark. I sometimes(always) tend to exist in a natural state of Hermit-tude. The best example I can give you is if I were left to my own devices, I would get up, stumble groggily to the coffee pot, make coffee, wander to my desk, plop in front of the computer in the dark and not move until I needed food or coffee. This is my natural state. It drives The Wife crazy sometimes.

I don’t hate this about myself, but I do want My Spawn to be well-rounded mini-people and I want them to be able to enjoy being outside. I don’t want them to fear the light like some nocturnal beastie. I hope that this isn’t genetic. I suspect it’s not, because I believe my dark-dwelling to be a product of my formative years with my babysitter the TV(kind of a long story, probably needs it’s own post), and my lack of ability to participate in normal kid activities that involve movement due to a medical issue(not a secret, just a long story. Also different post.)

I also tend to be a bit anti-social. I really like Sherlock Holmes’ description in the BBC show “Sherlock“: “[with contempt] I’m not a psychopath, Anderson, I’m a high-functioning sociopath. Do your research.” I don’t know if it applies to me, per se, but that’s kinda how I feel some days. Again, I’m fine with this but I’d rather My Offspring work well with others and not avoid other people.

So I suppose I’m not so much worried about how The Mini-People will turn out, as much as I’m curious to see if I Can encourage them to make better choice than I sometimes do. I should direct them to 450 Good Choices so they can see how much difference a few good choices at a time can make.

So this one was kinda all over. Let’s go with: What triggers your rebellious moments?

Apology Accepted

I feel I owe you all my utmost and deepes- Ok I can’t do that with a straight face anymore.

I missed a few days because I’ve been crazy busy. Deal with it.

Kidding!

(kind of)

I have to admit, between excellent new TV shows, and the upcoming November sweeps week, television has also stolen my soul and will to live. I promise that I have these gand plans when I come home about all the awesome things I’m going to get accomplished in the hours between 6 and 12.

Then the funny moving pictures start and I turn in to Nero; content to watch the world burn around me as long as I am entertained. Dance for me television puppets…dance.

Anywho, I don’t really have an excuse, and I’ve not got much to write about. I still have that big thing I mentioned before, and I came up with a funny story about this job interview I went on once. It wasn’t funny when it happened to me, it was generally a terrifying and wholly disheartening experience, which probably means it makes for good comedy when told properly.

Also, We’re headed into that awesome gauntlet of the ‘Holiday Season’ That has basically begun to stretch from the minute Halloween is over until after New Year’s Day. I tend to both love and despise the holidays, which means there might be some nuggets of self-loathing comedic gold to mine for. Maybe I’ll find some of that to share with you.

Well, that’s all folks.

For now.

-Christopher