The Wall

I totally hit a wall today.

Wall

Wall (Photo credit: zebble)

I mean metaphorically. Though, if you know me well enough, hitting a wall literally, really doesn’t seem implausible. I digress.

We had an upgrade to the software we use at work today. I was the on site tech, and I was responsible for working with the remote specialized tech. I was there to answer any specific questions about our systems and set up, as well as be the other person’s eyes and ears. I also logged them into our stuff remotely.

The original time estimate for the series of operations that they were performing today was 6 hours. We were supposed to be out of commission from 8 this morning, until 2 this afternoon. We were actually up and running before 12 noon.

This was a really good thing. We beat our estimated time by a full 2 hours. That’s 2 extra hours that we weren’t planning to have access to our systems. It did leave me with a small dilemma. I didn’t plan on having time to do anything worthwhile today at work.

I was planning on being occupied for the full 6 hours, with possible stops for troubleshooting along the way. I figured that even if we got done right on time, that my day would be pretty much shot. I was half right.

After all the IT work was done, I just kind of drifted around aimlessly. I still did things while I was at work, but I didn’t have a lot of self-starting motivation. I just kind of waited around until someone needed me for something. I kind of hit a wall.

O h well, there’s always tomorrow

I need a Vacation

No really, I need some time away from people.

I need to get more than a couple of days off. I could use a day or two to get caught up on home responsibilities. Get all of that out of the way.

then I need to take a couple of days to just go away. Like, into the woods, by a lake, with just food, books and paper to write/draw on. Or I could do out to the beach. I dig the beach. Especially in the fall when the evil sun is less prevalent.

English: Pismo Creek estuary, Pismo Beach. tak...

English: Pismo Creek estuary, Pismo Beach. taken from Addie Vacation Townhomes trail. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

I’m not trying to complain this time. I’m just making an observation. I haven’t really been able to find a way to get the batteries fully recharged recently. My job is such that I have to deal with a lot of people and a fair amount of stress most days.

I believe myself to be an introvert, who happens to be good at conversation. I may be fine at a gathering of people, but I generally prefer quiet/just music and solitude/less interaction.

I’m able to just about get myself recharged enough to function the next day. Then I use the weekends to make a big push to be functional for the week. That typically means that I’m pretty wiped out at the end of the work day. Which usually results in a desire to be a bum the rest of the evening.

I just need to get a full recharge under my belt. I’m not sure how I’m going to make that happen though. I might have time to get away for a day or two, but I’m certainly not going to get a week or half a week off of work.

C’est la vie I suppose.