Well, Well, Well…

That’s a deep subject, I know. (Ba-dump, Tsss.)

I have to apologize for that. I haven’t been around for much too long, and the first thing I put up on the screen is a terrible pun. I am so sorry for that. And now I’m not sorry anymore. Ha!

At some point I’m going to have to stop writing re-introduction posts. My lack of skill in true multi-tasking precludes me from being able to concentrate on a multitude of things at once. I get busy with one or two things, and I get completely sidetracked from so many other things!

Multitasking (work desktop)

Multitasking (work desktop) (Photo credit: FransBadger)

I really meant to be writing one or two times a week. I managed to put that off. I’ve even been trying to write this very post for 4 days now. I haven’t been reading, or writing, or blogging like I should. These are the things that keep me sane. These are the sorts fo things that keep me mentally engaged.

It’s very easy for me to spend my days sitting and trying to recharge for the next round of crazy. I really should be doing little things that help me recharge in an active way so that I don’t create bad habits.

Soon enough, there’s going to be plenty of outside work to do, which is always pretty tiring for me. It’s rewarding to make the outside of a house and yard look nice, but it can be pretty exhausting. It also is the sort of thing that requires plenty of maintenance so the work is always on the horizon.

Here’s pushing for active relaxation in the coming days!


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Here a plan, there a plan…

I’ve been making a few plans recently.

A friend of mine has been encouraging my writing and other assorted personal growth items. She claims to be my Life Coach. I can’t really dispute that.

She has the luxury of being able to be brutally honest. We’re friends, and have been for over 10 years now. Not much that’s going to keep that from continuing. That being said, she can pretty much say what she feels and I will just have to deal with it.

Don’t get the wrong idea, she isn’t mean. What she is, is a straight shooter. Not just with me, but with everyone. I just happen to get the benefit of her caring about me, and using that ‘no bullshit’ attitude to my benefit.

She is a fantastic writer. So naturally, she’s the one I would talk to when I was interested in trying to be a better writer. She’s been giving me some things to work on. If you remember, I wrote a story a while back, published in five parts. She got to read it first. I got some good feedback there. One thing I carry around from my artistic background though, is that I kind of feel like a piece of writing exists on it’s own, as an example of when and how it was written. I’m not so good at the editing and re-writing portion of things.

I am working on some of those prompts and exercises. If I get anything out of them worth sharing, I will definitely put them up for people to take a look at.


Writing (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

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Since You’ve Been Gone…

It feels like I’ve been chewin’ on tinfoil.  (bonus points if you know where that’s from)

I know that I haven’t been around. There’s a reason for that. I also know that that the only person that feels like I’m letting them down is me.

I have had some things going on outside of the blog, that have required my attention. I think I can also say that they are going to continue to require a great deal of my attention. I also think these are things that are best dealt with in their own space and time.

English: The spotlight model of attention.

English: The spotlight model of attention. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

That would be why I had been less verbose than before. I may also continue to have less to post than my previous everyday schedule. A large part of this also comes from my growing concern that I was just throwing fluff up on the internet for people to read.

When I first started here, I was able to post opinions, musings, and worldviews that seemed as if they needed to be shared. I had something to say every day, and the responsibility and routine of that was very nice for me. Now that some of those musings have slowed down a little bit, I don’t really want to be forcing something on to the page that just isn’t worth reading, writing, or sharing.

That’s why I’m thinking that I’m not going to commit to a firm schedule for writing here, but I’m also not giving up. I am going to ATTEMPT to write 2 or 3 times a week. I admit that this may not always happen. I will say that if it isn’t happening, it has more to do with not having something to say than it does laziness in regards to posting.

In case you were wondering, I will probably still be writing a few things, but they may not be for posting. I will continue to work on things to share here though, in addition to musings. There may still be the occasional poem or story.

Now on to an actual musing to kick this thing off right!

I have been listening to a podcast called Stuff To Blow Your Mind. I’ve been listening for awhile, but the most recent one happened to mention some things that I’d been pondering a bit anyway. They were referencing reincarnation and some of the different interpretations of it.


One of those viewpoints is that reincarnation can exist as a metaphor to our daily life. That how we act and react from moment to moment can set the stage or establish a pattern for the next and subsequent moments. That sort of tied into something that has been bouncing around in my head. People frequently say that a way to improve your outlook on life is simply to decide to be positive. I struggle mightily with this sort of thing.

I have been striving to be more positive, and more importantly, not be so hard on myself when I feel that I have made a mistake. I’ve been pushing that much harder recently, and it can sometimes create a bit of a feedback loop. Example A: I forget to do something that I said I would. I then get upset with myself for forgetting to do that thing. I then get upset with myself for getting upset with myself. Feedback loop.

When something like that starts to happen, I find myself wondering how it is that one could simply decide to be more positive about the whole thing. How am I supposed to just DECIDE to not be so hard on myself? I understand and can buy into the idea that your approach to situations can color how you handle them. I just can’t figure out how to simply change that approach.

I guess it was just one of those things that struck a chord and got me wondering.



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Short Series

I thought I had more than that.

I swear I had more Villains in my head when I started this series. Alas, this series will stay short. Jim Moriarty, The Weeping Angels, and The Joker will be all for this one.

I have to say that I was very interested in this Villain Series. Looking at a group of characters that typically doesn’t get recognition was a lot of fun. We love to hate Villains, but we never talk about why they’re sometimes so compelling. Many villains are especially potent to different people. I find this very interesting.

I kind of enjoyed the series. It’s more than a list, but not dedicating a whole month of posts to one topic or anything. I can sort of tailor the length of posts and number of posts based on the topic.


Séries+ (Photo credit: Wikipedia) I have no idea what this is a picture of. It just said ‘Series’ so I went with it.

I would say you could probably look forward to more posts of that nature from me.

Have a good weekend!

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(blink blink)

Well hello there.

Long time no see. How’s it going over there? How were your holidays? Anything I need to know about you for the New Year?

Fireworks #1

Fireworks #1 (Photo credit: Camera Slayer)

So let’s start here: Sorry about the absence. That was unplanned. I know that people frequently take time off from blogs this time of year. I made no plans one way or another.  the not writing just kind of happened. 

The Wife and I had a busy holiday season, as I’m sure lots of other people did. We were also honored to participate in a wedding the weekend between the two holidays. It has all been a bit of a whirlwind. 

Last night was the first time I felt like I had any time to even think about writing here. So if I shocked anyone by taking a ‘Holiday Hiatus’ I apologize. It was definitely unplanned.

I will admit that it was nice though. Not because writing had really been a problem or a chore, but because of all the craziness. Now that the New Year has started, things feel a little more relaxed. I feel a little more free to let thoughts percolate.

I know the New Year is a time for big plans and resolutions. It’s a time to reflect on what has been and what could yet come to be. I may do a reflection post, but I don’t think I will be making a ‘big plans’ kind of post. I think it would be best for me to focus on refining my everyday goals. 

I think that what would do me the most good, would be work on being more who I want to be everyday. I’m not setting big long-term goals, I’m just setting daily goals. If I don’t meet them, I’ll just try again tomorrow. I’m thinking I might not even tell anyone what those daily goals are. Not because I don’t want to be accountable, but because I just want to think for me, and work at being the best me.

Happy New Year to all of you. I do plan on being back to a post once a day, but that’s not a new goal, just a continuation of the previous one.

Time to Read People!

I really need to make some time to get back to reading other people’s blogs.


Blog! (Photo credit: solofotones)

I feel terrible that I’ve been slacking on that lately. I know you people are writing interesting things. I know that there is a lot of it there to read. I just can’t seem to find the motivation to read when I have the time.

There’s always something else taking my attention or distracting me. Half of the reason I starting writing here was because I saw what other people were able to do on their blogs. It was very inspiring. I wanted to write for me, but I wanted to know what it was like to be one of you all.

I’m also sure that some of you only stopped by my nice little hole in the wall here because I was commenting or liking something you had written. I certainly haven’t done enough of that lately either. I hope you’ll forgive me. I really want to get back to it.

I will make an extra effort this weekend. After I make my Christmas list. I’ve been getting some not-so-subtle nudges from family members that they require a list.

I’ll start reading again, I promise!

Other’s Creativity

Other people’s creativity is fascinating to me.

I’ve always been a creative person. It was just something that has manifested in different ways over the years. I’m still not entirely convinced that I’ve found the best outlet for it.

I always had an excellent imagination. I could pretend with the best of them. I had a cousin that was pretty good as well. She and I had a lot of good times.

I never had a lot of friends though. I always kind of found it hard to connect with other children. I wasn’t completely anti-social or anything, I just found that I would often prefer to read by myself, or play video games by myself. Those two things aren’t interesting to do with other people.

woman playing Duck Hunt video game, lightgun

woman playing Duck Hunt video game, lightgun (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

I have a few close friends now, and even more acquaintances that I see somewhat regularly. The people that end up close with me usually share a special something. Passion.

Passion for something. I have a great friend who is a crazy creative like me, a video game nut and and amazing artist. We both have a passion for creative works and good video games. I have another friend that exceptionally passionate about good food, the intricacies of American Football an Basketball, and it a great friend and family guy.

The point is, I don’t get close to a lot of people, but I’m still able to admire their creativity from afar. WordPress and Tumblr have made this even easier. Hooray Internet!

I can pretty much search for anything I want and find stories, drawings, and discussion about it. It’s truly amazing.

So Thank you. All you creatives who have carved out a little corner of the internet. you claim it as your own, but let us sometimes peek inside to see what you’ve been working on. Thank you.

Posting Blues

I’m disappointed y’all.

Disappointed in the sun.

Disappointed in the sun. (Photo credit: piermario)

I know that I’ve been posting every weekday like I want to. I’m meeting that goal. I don’t think that what I’m posting is up to snuff.

I’m not exactly writing world-changing posts here. The trouble is, my brain thinks in huge, over-arching, world-changing ways. I’d frustrating to know that I’m not properly communicating that through what I’m posting.

I think a big part of that is that I’m not able to post until the evening. I’m usually winding down by the time I’m able to post and that means that the ideas aren’t flowing as freely. IT’s a struggle to even write something one a topic I’m interested in some nights.

That’s pretty disappointing too. I know I’m capable of better. I know that people don’t stop by as often when I’m throwing slapdash shit against the wall to see what sticks. I know that more people are interested when I’m able to really get the crazy-ball rolling in the morning.

So all of that is combining to make me a little blue about posting. I still really want to, and I plan on keeping up with it. I just thought I’d share how it was feeling recently. Maybe I’ll be able to shoehorn some time in there to get writing in the morning. Maybe. Don’t want to start too early or you’ll just get incoherent mumbling about how I ought to be able to sleep later.

Here’s hoping it can be an upswing.

I warned you

Here it is. My arbitrary milestones post that I warned you about. If these kind of posts aren’t your thing, run now. RUN AWAY!!!!

Anywhoozle, This is my 200th post . I’ve had this blog since September of 2011, but I’ve only been really truly posting consistently since April of 2013. I had big months before, but these lest 6 and  a half have been my real push.

200/365 Orange Celebration

200/365 Orange Celebration (Photo credit: kurichan+)

I know I go through stretches(like now) where the posts aren’t always deep. They can seem pointless or rushed. I don’t get to write when I Want, I have to write when I have time. I have still managed to stick with it most days. I haven’t really missed many weekdays writing. It feels good.

It feels good to have stuck with it. It feels good to be committed to writing something everyday. It feels good interacting with all of you that stop by. I think that’s a large part of why I want to write everyday instead of 2 or 3 times per week. Writing here is like having a conversation with lots of people all at once. I like to be involved in that conversation.

I love writing my way through this life. I love having this conversation. It’s been a great thing for me personally. I can’t thank all of you who have stopped by or who continue to stop by, enough.

As I said, This is post number 200. I’ve got a modest following of 38 people here, 30 on tumblr that link to here, and anybody that follows me on Facebook or Twitter can see the post links. This is my little corner of the universe. I’m glad that any of you decided to stop by and more glad that some of you continue to do so.

If you feel like you want to, it’d be cool if you let anyone who you think might enjoy it here to stop by too. If not, that’s cool. I don’t mind. I’m a weird dude and that’s not for everybody.

Thank you again. I never thought I’d be able to stick with this or anything as long as I have and I look forward to seeing where it goes from here.

I’ve been hiding, I know.

Sorry that I’ve been hiding from you all.

I’m sure you’ve noticed that I’ve been a bit busy and sporadic with my posts. I’m sure no one is all that upset. I do feel a little bad, however.

I really try not to just write and wait for people to stop by. I try to be friendly and read as well as write. I love getting comments and having conversations and I’m sure you all do too. I really try to read a lot of what people post and I make an effort to comment when I have something to say. I have really been slacking on the reading part.

I have not been taking much time to read what you lovely people have written recently. For that I am sorry. I don’t want to be a blog-vampire. All taking and no giving. That is definitely not my intent.

I don’t want to make any excuses, but if you want a reason it’s simply because I have been busy. I haven’t taken the time out of my busy-ness to do much reading. I hope to be able to do better in the coming weeks. Work tends to get crazy this time of year, which means home gets crazy as well. So no promises, but I will make an effort.

On that note, I’m going to finish a couple things, and then go to bed early since I now have to go in to work tomorrow.